funny

u dun hav to change ur name in order to be "cool"

u dun hav to follow the stream to "fit in"

all that u gotta do is to be "urself"

n dat's wad makes u special..

n dat's wad makes the people around u so curious about u..

coz u'r unique..

different..

not the same..

not like the others..

n the more u r quiet, the more people wanna know u..

d more they wud think "who is dis gal?"

d more they wud research about u here n there..

d more they wud talk bot u here n there..

but one thing they dun realize is dat...

they make a fool of themselves..

by staring at u..

by acting so weird in front of u..

some of them might suddenly run..

some of them just staring while actually they're doing something else..

some of them just walk away coz they c u there..

n dat makes u realize how funny things r..

n u also realize dat..

there's nothing u can do bout it..

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Qui Sera, Sera

Everyone in this life have their own storylines. These stories vary from each other, and unique from each and another. There may be happy times, as well as sad times. With that, this life is more interesting with the varieties.

As for me, I’m basically the same with the other people in this world. I got happy times and sad times. I also got problems in this life. People may see me, like, I never had problems, I’m like a princess with everything in my hands, etc. when actually, there are lots of things that are beyond that judgments.

For me, I tend to smile to everyone, whenever I can. I’m more to dedicating myself to everyone around me. This is why I keep holding on. Everyone. My loved ones.

I’m very thankful to God, that I’m surrounded by a lot of nice people. I’m thankful that I got a good family. I’m thankful that I got good friends. I love them, and they love me too.

I want to be the best for everyone around me, my loved ones. I never want to disappoint them, I just want to be there whenever they need me. I will always give a smile, a laugh, for them.

No matter what will happen later… I just want to keep trying… I just want to keep holding on… I just want to keep smiling… Even when everything goes wrong…Even when there are no more tears to shed… Even when there are nothing more I can say…Even when there is nothing I could think of… Whatever will be, will be…

I will be here as the time goes by. Every second, every minute, every hour, everyday, as long as I live. Together with the things that keep me busy. Together with everyone around me. Together with everyone who loves me. Together to go through every phase of my life.

Next To You

Two 'o clock and I wish that I was sleeping
You're in my head like a song on the radio
All I know is that I got to get next to you
Yeah I got to get next to you
Sitting here turning minutes into hours
To find the nerve just to call you on the telephone
You don't know that I got to get next to you

[Chorus]
Maybe were friends
Maybe were more
Maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little too long
And it makes me start to wonder
So baby call me crazy
But I think you feel it too
Maybe I, Maybe I
Just got to get next to you

I asked around and I heard that you were talking
Told my girl that you thought I was out of your league
What a fool, I got to get next to you, whoa
Yeah it's five in the morning and I can't go to sleep
'Cause I wish, yeah I wish that you knew what you mean to me
Baby let's get together and end this mystery, oh

[Chorus]
Maybe were friends
Maybe were more
Maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little too long
And it makes me start to wonder
So baby call me crazy
But I think you feel it too
Maybe I, Maybe I
Just got to get next to you

Whatcha got to say? Whatcha got to do?
How ya get the one you want to want to get next to you?

Whatcha got to say? Whatcha got to do?
How ya get the one you want to want to get next to you?

Whatcha got to say? Whatcha got to do?
How ya get the one you want to want to get next to you?

Whatcha got to say? Whatcha got to do?
How ya get the one you want to want to get next to you?
Yeah, yeah, to want to get next to you

[Chorus]
Maybe were friends
Maybe were more
Maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little too long
And it makes me start to wonder
So baby call me crazy
But I think you feel it too
Baby call me crazy
But I know you feel it too
Maybe I, Maybe I
Just got to get next to you
Yeah, yeah, yeah
I got to get next to you

the one

I wish I could have a boyfriend like best friend.
the one who can understand me fully.
the one who will accompany me when i need him the most.
the one who listens to all of my stories.
the one who will make me happy always.
the one who can understand all of my routine schedule.
the one who respects me the most.
the one who accepts me the way I am.
the one who loves me truly.
the one who will cheer me up when I'm sad.
the one who will motivate me when I'm down.
the one who will support me in everything.

Possessionless

All the things that i've collected
Stones and Shells
Every word in every book
Upon my shelves
Only form a brief description of myself
But they don't define who i am
I don't think anything can, no

If i strip away the non-necessities
All the damage all the mess surrounding me
I don't crave what i have not
I don't need more than i've got
It's just me that i offer up

All i got is my body
And it's naked for you
All i got is this heart
That i'm willing to lose
I know in this life
I give it everything
All i got is this soul and
Its shedding its clothes
Do you see who i am now
Your standing this close
You know in these arms
You're feeling everything

I'm learning what to give
What to protect
To look into the mirror
Though i'm not perfect
It's still a work in progress
Hasn't finished yet
Wanna be transparent
See through
Not gonna hide me from you

All i got is my body
And it's naked for you
All i got is this heart
That i'm willing to lose
I know in this life
I give it everything
All i got is this soul and
Its shedding its clothes
Do you see who i am now
Your standing this close
You know in these arms
You're feeling everything

I'm completely undressed
But i couldn't care less
I'm standing here possessionless
It's the only true test
When the only thing left
Is a love thats possessionless
I don't crave what i have not
i don't need more than i've got
It's just me that i offer up

All i got is my body
And it's naked for you
All i got is this heart
That i'm willing to lose
I know in this life
I give it everything
All i got is this soul and
Its shedding its clothes
Do you see who i am now
Your standing this close
You know in these arms
You're feeling everything

NonStop!!!

haven't sleep today. last night slept at 4.45 am, woke up at 7.45 am, took shower, went to campus. got home at 1.30 pm. cleaned up the glasses of the windows at the second floor, then cleaned up the tables of the deities until about 5.45 pm. I almost fainted, but I still can manage that time. I just drank water after that. then I swept the floor in the praying room, then did mommy a favor of looking after the repair man in her room, then i mopped the floor in the praying room. my lil bro wanted fried rice for dinner, so i cooked him one. after that, i continued my tasks. i swept the floor in my mom's room, then i took quick shower coz mommy asked me to go out with her to have some meal. I think it's about 9 pm already. I got home at about 10.30 pm. then i continued my tasks. i swept and mopped the second floor, the laundry room. then i do the laundry, after that, iron the clothes. i think it's already about 3.20 am. so, here i am now, in front of my laptop. sleepy.

Tired

So tired today, coz lack of sleep.. slept at 4.40 am n woke up at 8.20 am, then off to campus til 4.30 pm, then directly do assignments til now.. need sleep!!!

haven't do all of my tasks, still a lot.. haiyah.. wish i could have more time n energy.

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What you think about this?

I been holding it in now I'm letting it flow

What you think about this?

I'm gonna do my own thing yeah I'm flying solo so

Don't tell me how its gonna be

On my own

And the thing of it is

There's nothing round here that I'm gonna miss

Cause you're holding me down

I just wanna fly

There comes a time when I gotta say goodbye

To the life that you see me in

Here's where I begin

And I promise myself

I ain't nobody's, I just wanna be free

And I promise myself

Even though it don't always come easy

Gonna learn from my pain

Never explain

Do it my way, that's what I say

Promise myself

I'm the only one who will believe me

There's a voice in my head

Telling me come on, come on, move on

There's a voice in my head

Telling me I know my right from wrong

They say what doesn't kill you can

Make you strong

Now I know what it means

You can try to bend but you ain't breakin my dreams

I'll be making mistakes

Comin up at a loss

I'll be tumbling down

But Like MC shake it off

I'll stay cool cause I know who's boss

Of me, myself, and I

I'll keep movin even when the beat is gone (I will)

I'll keep doin what i got to do to carry on (I will)

So don't hold me down cause i'm gonna fly

and the time has come and gotta say goodbye

To the life that you see me in

Here's where I begin

I'm over your lies

And I'm over your games.

I'm over you asking me when you know I'm not ok

You call me at night,

And I pick up the phone

And though you've been telling me, I know you're not aloneAnd that's why your eyes,

I'm over it.

Your smile,

I'm over it.

Realized

I'm over it, I'm over it, I'm over.

Wanting you to be wanting me

No, that ain't no way to be.

How I feel, read my lips

Because I'm so over, I'm so over

I'm so…

Moving on, and it's my time.

You never were a friend of fine

Hurt at first, a little bit

And now I'm so over,

So over it

I'm over your hands

And I'm over your mouth.

Trying to drag me down and fill me with self doubt

and that's why your world

I'm over it.

So sure,

I'm over it.

I'm not your girl

I'm over it, I'm over it, I'm over.

Wanting you to be wanting me

No, that ain't no way to be.

How I feel, read my lips

Because I'm so over, I'm so over

I'm so…

Moving on, and it's my time.

You never were a friend of fine

Hurt at first, a little bit

And now I'm so over,

So over it

I'm so over it

Don't call,

Don't come by.

Ain't no use

Don't ask me why.

You never change;

There'll be no more cryin'in the rain

never

I hope when you're in bed with her
you think of me
I would never wish bad things
but I don't wish you well
Could you tell
by the flames that burned your words
I never read your letter
'cause I knew what you'd say
Give me that Sunday school answer
Try make it all okay

Does it hurt
to know I'll never be there
But it sucks
to see my face everywhere
It was you
who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know
you knew
exactly what you would do
And don't say
you simply lost your way
She may believe you
but I never will
never again

If she really knows the truth
she deserves you

But when your day comes
and he's through with you

You wrote me in a letter
you couldn't say it right to my face

Never again will I hear you
Never again will I miss you
Never again will I fall to you
Never
Never again will I kiss you
Never again will I want to
Never again will I love you
Never!

Ouwkay..

This year is a really tough year for me. a lot of stuff happened and a lot are unpredictable. well, I learned some of the tricks. so, now I know that life ain’t easy task. Whenever I fall, I gotta try to get up. Whenever I cry, I gotta try to be happy. Whenever I’m hurt, I gotta try to unleash the pain. I gotta be stronger, each and everyday. I know, there will be more than this, that I must face. Cry will not solve anything, but it helps to calm myself. Singing, playing piano, and dancing helps too. But, cry is the best friend of mine in crazy situations. I dun need people to pity me. I need my friends to support me to go through everthing, everyday, in my life. I’m very grateful to have my friends and family. I love them with all my heart.

So. 6 days til new year. 6 days til new me. 6 days of process. No more of pastur etc. I will let go of this feeling. Everything. This is how life goes. We choose what we want to be. We have a choice. We are the one who decide. I decide to be happy. I decide not to keep myself down. I decide to be strong. I decide for my future. The future that me and my loved ones would want to see.

i wAnT tO..

Feel xo tired today coz lack of sleep.. tired after doing house chores.. a lot. I have like about 1 hour nap. It’s a good nap though..

there was a blackout for about half-an-hour.

I’ve been sms-ing sith my best friend as usual this whole day.. talking about stuff, and joking around, gossiping. It was so funny.. I laughed a lot. Haha.. about pastur. We’re crazy when the “nuts” mode is on.

Anyway, the pictures made me realize that this is just a game. Actually, I love playing games, but I’m tired of it already. No more. I dun really care anymore. I just have to go through this. I know I can. I just have to keep motivating myself to. I dun wanna fall again. My mom was asking me about how things going & she reminded me about those stuff. My best friend was reminding me too. I must remember that. I must do that. I must keep going on. I dun wanna disappoint them. I love them.

I know words are just words. Nothing more can proof the truth of it other than actions. Music is just music. Song is just a song. Lyrics are just words. They are all the same. The one thing that makes it different is expression. And this expression is the one inside our hearts. Which will be transferred to the brain and say what our heart say. and my heart say, I wanna be happy. So I will.

having fun

I’m so happy today coz I hang out with my friends for a few hours today. I was with Jimmy, Della, Medan, & Kevin.. we’re laughing like crazy!! Lots of fun.. lots of crazy talks, gossips, & expressions.. really miss that by now already..

Let the story begin…

Jimmy picked me up at my house at about 12.30.. then we straightly go to La Piazza, to 21 Cineplex, the movie house.. then we went to chowking.. after a few minutes, kevin joined us.. della came after that.. then medan came..

From chowking, we head to key duplicate maker.. I was about to duplicate one, but it’s not available.. so Jimmy & Medan got in the smoking area for a few minutes.. then we head to MKG3 to get some cash.. then Medan wanna check out the movies, so we went to the cinema.. the cinema was full of people queuing.. so we decided not to watch the movie..

then we went to Cinnzeo.. there, we had some pastries & coffee.. we read magazines available there and took some pictures.. they’re really good actually.. we’re laughing like, nonstop.. talking, talking, talking.. joking, joking, joking,.. teasing, teasing, teasing.. gossiping, gossiping, gossiping.. the number one teaser is Della. She’s one crazy teaser.. but she did that for fun, for joking around.. so it’s really fun..

from cinnzeo, we went to fashion hub, to buy some stuff. Then we head home..

I feel so tired.. think it’s because lack of sleep.. I almost fainted several times.. well, thank God I’m fine, and thank him for this beautiful day..

It’s past 12 am.. let’s make wishes.. it’s Cap Go.. it’s the full moon night.. they say, if you make wishes during this day, or the Ce It (when the chinese date turns to the new month), our wishes can come true.. and actually it’s kinda true.. even it won’t happen all the time, but it will come true for sure..

So my wishes are:

- hope everything’s gonna be okay

- hope studies & dance thing will be fine

- hope me & my loved ones will always be happy, healthy, and protected from all evils & natural disasters

- hope my wishes can come true

omitohud

omigod...

slept at 3 am last night.. chatting all night with my friends.. and i got a new friend.. she's american.. she's so like me.. well, not exactly, but we got a lot of similarities.. it's like "omigod" all over us last night.. from our stories, our tastes, our style, omg.. that's crazy.. she's a really nice person to talk with..

I woke up at about 6.30 am.. can’t sleep.. then just lie in bed til 8.30 am.. then tidy up and took shower.. then accompany my mom to the bank. After that we went to the mall to buy some books, food, and christmas gifts.. i got myself a caramel latte.. I’m craving for like these 1 week.. finally, I got it!! So happy for it.. hehe.. then, got back home..

At home, took some pics for jessica.. then install chocolatier coz my mom delete the program.. she’s so mean.. then, I washed the car along with my little brother.. it was so much fun.. my housemaid quit today.. so, gotta do chores.. hopefully next week, the replacement will come.. after washing the car, I bathe my lil bro, then I took a shower myself..

And online now.. I was about to send the e-mail for jessica, but I can’t find her email address.. stupid me.. so, I will wait til she’s online.. we’re like soulmates.. it’s really2 unpredictable that we have the same zodiac sign.. and really comfy to talk with.. and really nice.. omg..

Got some stuff to do during this holiday.. need to finish some stuffed animals for my friends, then do some college assignments.. I got EDP 101 assignment, ENG 107 assignment, and SOC.SC. 105 assignment.. and haven’t do any of those.. haven’t workout today.. maybe later..

Today is Dec 21, 2007.. 11 days to go til new year.. wonder why time went so fast.. nobody can control it.. but that’s the challenge in life.. that’s where we are put to test.. to compete with time.. to make time our friend.. to be able to manage time..

~What's Inside My Heart~

gw bakal lepas semua rasa penasaran, sakit ati, dll, tentang dy. gw bakal jadi orang yang beda banget.
biar tuhan yang bales semuanya. jadi gw harus ilangin rasa sakit gw.
uda ga ada tu yang namanya ikatan batin. semuanya bullshit. cuma nyakitin doank. alibi.
karma pasti bakal terjadi nanti.
uda ga ada yang namanya kabur-kabur. semua harus dihadapin. gw akan hadepin dengan tenang n open mind. gw akan anggep semuanya cerita masa lalu. gw bkal anggep semua angin lalu. no more demanding anything bot it anymore.
gw uda cukup puas selama ini soal semuanya.
mungkin suatu hari nanti dy nyadar kalo gw cewe yang setia, rela berkorban, selalu ngalah, rela diomelin, nurut, dan selalu belain dy, ditengah-tengah semua kesibukkan gw. ga ada tuh jaman sekarang cewe yang ga matre kaya gw. walau gw cape, ngantuk, ato sakit, gw tetep temenin dy. gw tetep ngurusin dy. gw tetep setia ama dy. gw tetep nurut ama dy. gw tetep rela dimaki-maki ama dy. gw cuma bisa nangis doank. saking cintanya gw ama dy. ampe apapun yg dy lakuin, bagi gw, itulah dy, gw terima aj, ampe gw ga percaya ap yg temen gw blg kalo dy jalan ama cewe laen, dll. gw lebih percaya mulut dy yg sebenernya bohong n bullshit doank isinya. copycat. dy selalu copy kata2 orang. apalagi dari lagu. selalu. ga ad yg laen. well, life is a song, but it doesn't hafta be like that all the time.
mungkin nanti dy nyadar kalo gw itu bukan "something" tapi "someone" special. gw bukan "thing", i'm a living breathing human. i'm a girl. i'm a really nice girl ever found in the universe. cinta dan sayang gw tulus selalu buat semua orang2 yg gw sayang. ga ad yg dibuat2 n pake rayuan gombal yg cuma copy paste dari lagu ato dari kata2 orang.
mungkin nanti dy akan tau gimana rasanya disakitin ma orang tersayang berkali-kali.
mungkin dy akan ngerti n bisa berubah buat diri dy sendiri dan orang lain.
mungkin nanti dy nyadar kalo cuma gw cewe yang mau bulak balik ma dy padahal uda disakitin untuk kesekian kalinya.
boleh dy ngomong bohong ama gw, kaya, "ga pegi2 1 minggu ini" tapi apa nyatanya? jelas2 temen g ngeliat dy pegi nonton ama cewe kamis malem. sementara dy blg gt ama gw hari selasa malem. kayanya ga ampe 1 minggu tuh.
pasti karma itu bakal balik ke dy. dy bakal sering dibohongin ama orang n dy bakal puxing bgt coz balesan karma lebih parah daripada dosa yang dy buat.
i dunno why i feel this pain inside when he came to me and say, "we broke up just fine, right? why are you avoiding me? can't we be friends?". he doesn't even know what he's doing. he doesn't even know that some people may get hurt by his unconsidered actions. and innocently, he asked that question, "we friends rite?". it's just the meanest thing i've ever heard.
so, i know that that's the way he is. never care about other people. just care about himself. he may say he's close to jesus and goes to the church every sunday, and join the gathering, but if the person himself doesn't understand what is being told and delivered in the process, well, he knows exactly nothing. he only put the information in his brain, but doesn't transfer it to his heart. everything is just like that. gak di resapin. ga di filter. cuma di-save doank di otak, dan ga pernah di lakuin di kehidupan sehari-hari. no implementation of the teachings. it's just an intermezzo for him.
well, hope his sins can be removed someday by his good acts. well, hope he could have one.
i'm gonna continue my life. i'm gonna move on with everything. i'm gonna take those stories as my story of the past. i'm gonna take the positive side, that i just knew that there are people like that, doesn't value love & honesty, and i become stronger after all the cries and hurt inside. may god bless every step i take all the time so i won't fall into any of those unpleasant situations.

I just dun understand that guys like him never think of other's feelings. I just so tired of talking and explaining things to him. He may say he just want to be friends with me, but I dunno what's inside his head. I just dun wanna fall again. Enough is enough. He never think of me. He never think that by everything he did would hurt me, like going out with a really damn pretty girl, which my mom saw and told me about that. He just still wanna hug me and kiss me, until he doesn't feel anything towards me anymore. Well, i dun think it's ever gonna work that way. Coz the only way to get over each other is to really stay away from each other. I'm just so tired of this..