juz tryin' my bez to live dis life

I juz want everything to be ok. tired of those things already. i dun wanna get hurt again. it's enough. I juz wanna be happy. no more crying like crazy. no more crazy insomnia. no more. I wanna smile happily. I wanna shine to the world.
maybe you think I'm stupid. maybe you think i'm juz a lil girl. but i'm not. i'm trying to be mature here, by not accepting your calls. by not replying your message. but, it doesn't mean i hate u. I hate the way you treat me like shits. I do. But now, i gotta face it. I accept that you treat me like shit. it happened already. you can't change the past.
maybe you dun understand a word i'm sayin' coz u r so blinded with ur pride. u dun hav any sympathy or empathy towards people. no altruism at all. u are a mean guy, u noe dat? well, i guess u will understand wad i feel in the future. when the time comes. dunno when. maybe 5 years later.

TiReD

Tired of lies. Tired of being hurt. Tired being like this all the time. I know I'm the stupidest girl ever in this world because I trust you with all my heart, and I love you truly inside. But, I must be strong and let go of everything because I don't want to get hurt again. I don't want to be crazy over you. You are not even worth it.
Cukup tau aja that u're dat kinda person. Cukup tau aja, selama ini, cuma mau maenin gw. Cukup tau aja that u're just a bunch of bullshits. Don't ever touch me again u nasty s.o.b.!

Puxing ah...

cape deh.. why everything must be like this.. everything's so confusing.. fall in love so deeply with a guy.. but the love is kinda forbidden.. juz wanna be hepi wit him even though we can't be together..